pics of joshy... enjoy!

bless endorphans

I went to a killer cycling class this morning. The teacher deemed it neccasary to kill us due to her naughty eating ( I think she knows what the rest of us have been eating). Bless her for it. I'm feeling much better about life after a hard work out.

my heart hurts

So, some you know bits and pieces of my health story and some of you know more then you should ever want or half to know but here is the update for all those who are wondering what is going on with the "brain tumor."

I went to the Specialist today who was kind, smart, funny and actully listened. He said the tumor is 3 mm big and something to be checked yearly for a few yrs then every other yr and then after about 10 yrs we can stop checking it. He doesn't expect it to grow and my lab results show no indication of causing any hormone imbalance. So I should be thrilled huh?

He is putting me back on all the same meds i was on earlier this year. That is a good thing- I felt better on the previous meds. I am also very sad. I cried a little- why doesn't someone have an answer for me. I'll willing to do the work to get healthy and drop the weight. In theroy if I could drop the weight a lot of the symptoms I'm now expierencing would go away. The trick is how in the heck to get there.

Many of you know the multipul extreems I have gone to in order to remidy the situation. Not to meniton the on going eating right and workout plan that has now become a lifestyle. It makes my heart hurt when no one seems to know what else I can try or do diffrent in order for this to happen.

I want so badly to be healthy so i can run faster, be stronger, have a greater change of having children and maybe even get a date someday. I'll get over it and soon find some strength to try again but for now I just want to give up the fight. I'm done trying and failing. Maybe i'm in denial, maybe there is something more I can be doing but for at least the next 10 min I don't have much hope that there is an answer. What do you do when your best just isn't good enough?

My heart just hurts

Almost pee'd my pants

Hope you find it as funny as I did. Always knew we were performers deep down :)

Twitter in a you tube video!

Watch and learn :)

Inspiration in 2 min from movies

YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Twitter- I'm converted!

If you're not on twitter now is the time to join. Get in early... don't wait 3 years until you have to. Be ahead of the business game! then add me... I loaded my twitter feed right into the blog- look on the right hand side... click follow and we'll be friends there. I will be posting tons of cool things in my twitter feed that you won't want to miss.

Joshy and missing the warm weather

I'm missing the warm weather. Here are pics from another bike ride that I never posted. I was pretty proud that these pics were taken while riding a bike... that's right people, while riding :) Also missing my shuffle... I washed it in a pair of jeans. That is one danger of it being so little:)

Christmas Work Party

It was a good time. They fed us stake and chicken- yum! Then they had an entertainer he does singer impressions -Jason something? He was funny... I liked the spainish impressions better, Go Ricky! The Top pic is my department- Training! Tina, Tiffany (my boss), Kerina, Sonja(doesn't work in the office) & Me! We have a way good time. Still lovin it here.

Bye Chicken!

So if you read my mom's blog you'll probably rememebr an entry not to long ago that talked about how we had to kill a chicken. Here are the pics! Dad was in a hurry becasue he was missing the first 3 minute of the BYU/UTAH game. Back to the chicken, the large buldge is an egg that somehow came out but it came out with it's guts still around it... it had another egg backed up so there was only one thing to do... Marta did it. Mom and I ran and screamed like little girls. I still want to be a rancher but I don't ever want to do the killing part. Yes people, we are a little bit country :)

Andrew's B-day!

A few weeks ago was Andrew's bithday. I'm way behind on posting pics so you might get an overload in the next few days. We went to Cheesecake Factory- YUM!!! They even put a candel in his cheesecase and sang to him. Me and Braden Split the Chicken fingers with mac and cheese and something else I can't remember right now. Everything there is HUGE and in the words of Elle (my 3 yr old cousin) " DELICIOUS FOOD!"

Team Hoyt

Anyone need happy. inspiring thoughts... this is maybe my favorite story of how feeling lead to results. I end up in tears everytime. Watch this!!!

Just another joy of being single

So an unnamed boy whom I used to love and still love to look at sent me a text late last night telling me that he had kissed a girl and really, really enjoyed it.

um.... okay?

He wanted me to know that he's still not interested even though we haven't talked in months

or he had no one else to tell and now he wants someone to talk to

or He are stupid!

Wierd... I want a real man, who thinks.

$1.45 for gas

That's right people I filled up fpr $18.24- the whole tank. The joy of a good deal is unexplainable!

Exciting!

So, I lOVE my Job still.

I proposed a few ideas and they not only went over well, the boss lady is excited about them! It's fun to feel appreciated and apart of a team that is moving forward. The idea that was approved is a monthly conference call that will connect people that previously weren't ever connected. It will be a Q&A that will address needed topics for upper level consultants at the company. Not only will people empower each other but I will get to glean from their expert advice and knowledge. Synergy is powerful my friends.

I'm re-reading Secrets of the Millionaire Mind today - What powerful truths are in this book! Are you poor and would like to see a little more money come into your life? I reccomend you read it. It was written by the wonderful T. Harv Eker in case you wanted to look it up