last day teaching eve

I'm an emotional disaster. I sat at my kitchen table about writing thank you's to give away to all the people who have been a big part of my journey at LPHS. Then I broke down and am still crying. I've DEEEEEEP LOVED my time there. I've never felt so fulfilled. loved, happy, excited about everyday. I'm gonna miss those kids so much. They've taught me to be happy, I've been my best self while I'm there and I'm just plain sad. I almost don't know how I'm going to walk in tomorrow. Pray that I'm not a mess all day and make it through the days of goodbyes. I loath goodbyes. There is something about teenagers that is magical.... I just love them so much it hurts and can't help it. Sometime I wish I didn't love them so much.

I'm also crying happy tears. I'm so grateful to have gotten to teach. I really can't believe how that feel into my lap. I'm thrilled for full time work in a happy office where people are productive, happy and take care of each other. I'm grateful that I'll have benefits and be able to take care of myself. I'm happy to continue to grow and stretch and be apart of something great.

Have I mentioned yet that I LOVE my new job. Time flies and the department I'm in is hilarious and fun and happy. so life really is going to be okay, - better then okay. Its going to be wonderful and I know it. If only I didn't have to do the goodbye part.

Emotional girl now going to cry herself asleep.