made me laugh

Cause its true :)

more pics and a letter to spence

This week was busy and fun. It was the masquerade on Thursday night so I spent the early part of the week running erronds and getting ready for it. Then thursday was the big night. It was great to get to be with so many people I love and see students! Man I miss that.

I am loving my new job at ZYTO. They are a medical device company. I support the sales team and this week I have started doing all the trade show stuff... makes me thrilled! I get to go to a convention this weekend its just in SLC but they get me a hotel room and it'll be fun to get to understand the trade show process better by seeing it firsthand. The sales guys are hilarious and everyone there is really fun. I also got put on the "fun" committee. Think of the office and the party committee. Tomorrow we're have a costume and pumpkin carving contest. They company is also buying us lunch. They are great to there employees and I'm honestly happy to go to work everyday.

Friday night I went with Ryan to a house show he was playing at. It was awesome! I get there and it was at this kids house who went to AF high but I knew him from FFA and had traveled with him several times. Tons of great musicians were there and they took turns singing and playings short (3-4 song) sets. I sat there almost not believing it was my real life. I was chilling in a living room with all of these amazing musicians and felt like I was just jamming with them. I ate it up! And of course I love to hear Ryan play any chance I get. That kid, his talent and his voice... it kills me.

I woke up this morning not feeling good so I slept all day... now I feel a little better but hate feeling like a wasted a whole day sleeping. I have been up for maybe 3 hrs. I just keep sleeping.

Hope its a fun Halloween for you and that you get to celebrate somehow. BIG love ya brother!

sneak peak of masquerade pics

you get this one cause its the only one I have... can't wait for more of them to come!

Rexburg

So last minute I decided to go up with Ryan and Brandon to there concert in Rexburg. Lauren came (Spencer's Friend)! It was so fun to see her.... she is darling. I sure miss his friends hanging around all the time. I also ran into a student from last year who is now at BYU-I. I was sad I didn't get to see campus but were gonna go back soon hopefully!

Click on this for a clip from last night.

last day teaching eve

I'm an emotional disaster. I sat at my kitchen table about writing thank you's to give away to all the people who have been a big part of my journey at LPHS. Then I broke down and am still crying. I've DEEEEEEP LOVED my time there. I've never felt so fulfilled. loved, happy, excited about everyday. I'm gonna miss those kids so much. They've taught me to be happy, I've been my best self while I'm there and I'm just plain sad. I almost don't know how I'm going to walk in tomorrow. Pray that I'm not a mess all day and make it through the days of goodbyes. I loath goodbyes. There is something about teenagers that is magical.... I just love them so much it hurts and can't help it. Sometime I wish I didn't love them so much.

I'm also crying happy tears. I'm so grateful to have gotten to teach. I really can't believe how that feel into my lap. I'm thrilled for full time work in a happy office where people are productive, happy and take care of each other. I'm grateful that I'll have benefits and be able to take care of myself. I'm happy to continue to grow and stretch and be apart of something great.

Have I mentioned yet that I LOVE my new job. Time flies and the department I'm in is hilarious and fun and happy. so life really is going to be okay, - better then okay. Its going to be wonderful and I know it. If only I didn't have to do the goodbye part.

Emotional girl now going to cry herself asleep.

thoughts

I haven't written in a long time. There is much that could be said... for now here are a few recent thoughts, updates, whatever you wanna call em.

- God or the universe or whatever you want to call it Loves me. He also loves you. Usually i remember that He loves me but sometimes I forget that He loves all of you as much as I do.... maybe even more then I do. I forget that He knows how to take care of you better then I do and that He's going to make sure your okay. I'm gonna try really hard to remember that and let go a little easier.

- No full time job yet but some promising interviews. I'm still looking and submitting applications. I feel hopeful and that's good news! I'm loving my time teaching and trying to relish every second as I know it will soon end. I love my students and so does God.

- I get to make choices based on whats going to make me happy and not what makes the most logical and practical sense. That was a new concept for me today - I think a rather healthy and exciting one.

- I love my Family. I have had a great time this week with almost every member. Miss you really big Spencer! From texts with Josh to Dinner with Sam and Michale to TV with Mom and Chats with Dad. I love these people. We really enjoy each other... its amazing to be apart of something this good.

- Fall TV premieres are amazing! I'm loving having all my friends back- Grey's, Survivor, Parenthood, Biggest Loser, etc... you get the idea. I've missed you and am thrilled your back!

- I went Latin Dancing this week- Loved IT! Something so healing about touch and music.

my friends

are amazing! I'm so glad to go through life with people who are so supportive and love me. Single world can get lonely sometimes but in our circle of friends I'm constantly amazed how supportive everyone is. This week I had friends bring me ice cream and mexican coke in bottles when I had a real bad boy day. These are the type of friends eveyone needs and I hope everyone is lucky enough to have.

It's Kylee bithday today. Its been a really fun weekend. I love her! If you see facebook, my blog, or ever see me you know that we have more than our fair share of fun together. Life is always good when your with her. She is amazing. Boys are idiots... just sayin. Rachelle made her this rad dvd of people saying happy birthday and pics of the year. It made me so glad that all these people are in my life... we love each other.

I was reminded today that even though life isn't perfect I have what's most important in life. I have incredable relationships.

So what I'm sayin is I'm the luckiest girl!