Thursday, December 25, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Posted by Megan at 10:05 AM
So, some you know bits and pieces of my health story and some of you know more then you should ever want or half to know but here is the update for all those who are wondering what is going on with the "brain tumor."
I went to the Specialist today who was kind, smart, funny and actully listened. He said the tumor is 3 mm big and something to be checked yearly for a few yrs then every other yr and then after about 10 yrs we can stop checking it. He doesn't expect it to grow and my lab results show no indication of causing any hormone imbalance. So I should be thrilled huh?
He is putting me back on all the same meds i was on earlier this year. That is a good thing- I felt better on the previous meds. I am also very sad. I cried a little- why doesn't someone have an answer for me. I'll willing to do the work to get healthy and drop the weight. In theroy if I could drop the weight a lot of the symptoms I'm now expierencing would go away. The trick is how in the heck to get there.
Many of you know the multipul extreems I have gone to in order to remidy the situation. Not to meniton the on going eating right and workout plan that has now become a lifestyle. It makes my heart hurt when no one seems to know what else I can try or do diffrent in order for this to happen.
I want so badly to be healthy so i can run faster, be stronger, have a greater change of having children and maybe even get a date someday. I'll get over it and soon find some strength to try again but for now I just want to give up the fight. I'm done trying and failing. Maybe i'm in denial, maybe there is something more I can be doing but for at least the next 10 min I don't have much hope that there is an answer. What do you do when your best just isn't good enough?
My heart just hurts
Posted by Megan at 12:11 AM
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Posted by Megan at 11:39 AM
Monday, December 15, 2008
If you're not on twitter now is the time to join. Get in early... don't wait 3 years until you have to. Be ahead of the business game! then add me... I loaded my twitter feed right into the blog- look on the right hand side... click follow and we'll be friends there. I will be posting tons of cool things in my twitter feed that you won't want to miss.
Posted by Megan at 10:14 AM
I'm missing the warm weather. Here are pics from another bike ride that I never posted. I was pretty proud that these pics were taken while riding a bike... that's right people, while riding :) Also missing my shuffle... I washed it in a pair of jeans. That is one danger of it being so little:)
Posted by Megan at 10:07 AM
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Posted by Megan at 10:11 AM
So if you read my mom's blog you'll probably rememebr an entry not to long ago that talked about how we had to kill a chicken. Here are the pics! Dad was in a hurry becasue he was missing the first 3 minute of the BYU/UTAH game. Back to the chicken, the large buldge is an egg that somehow came out but it came out with it's guts still around it... it had another egg backed up so there was only one thing to do... Marta did it. Mom and I ran and screamed like little girls. I still want to be a rancher but I don't ever want to do the killing part. Yes people, we are a little bit country :)
Posted by Megan at 8:43 AM
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
A few weeks ago was Andrew's bithday. I'm way behind on posting pics so you might get an overload in the next few days. We went to Cheesecake Factory- YUM!!! They even put a candel in his cheesecase and sang to him. Me and Braden Split the Chicken fingers with mac and cheese and something else I can't remember right now. Everything there is HUGE and in the words of Elle (my 3 yr old cousin) " DELICIOUS FOOD!"
Posted by Megan at 11:14 AM
Anyone need happy. inspiring thoughts... this is maybe my favorite story of how feeling lead to results. I end up in tears everytime. Watch this!!!
Posted by Megan at 10:26 AM
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
So an unnamed boy whom I used to love and still love to look at sent me a text late last night telling me that he had kissed a girl and really, really enjoyed it.
He wanted me to know that he's still not interested even though we haven't talked in months
or he had no one else to tell and now he wants someone to talk to
or He are stupid!
Wierd... I want a real man, who thinks.
Posted by Megan at 1:37 PM
Posted by Megan at 11:05 AM
Monday, December 1, 2008
Posted by Megan at 11:25 AM